Such a pretty world...

what to do...

2011-10-18T20:04:00.001-07:00

There are a lot of things I need to do. I'm making a list once again but for now, it's bed time. I will see what I can get done in the morning.

Another day...:) that happens a lot

2010-07-13T19:38:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty relaxed. I got up a little later then I meant too but maybe I needed some sleep. I'm watching some movies and they're interesting. I'm watching "Shutter Island" It's not too bad yet, but I guess I'll see how the ending holds up.

I saw a few others..."Unthinkable." that was strange though interesting. And Peircy Jackson and the lighting theif, I think it was called. It was okay, cute I think but not that great, but not horrible. The effects were cool but the characters were kind of stock people, genre types that fit a mold. ;)

Not that I can do any better.

Well, as soon as this movie is over, I'll do my walking DVD and then read before bed. That's all for now.

Update: Wow, time went by. I need to get back into doing things again. Sheesh.

2010-07-12T07:06:00.001-07:00

I'm working on taking deep breaths and not worrying so much. ;) I do that from time to time but then I tend to settle back into old bad habbits and nothing gets done. So,here I go again and I'll try to make my journals regular. This helps me get my thoughts out and then I can see them more objectively...or I think so.

So I've done my walking and I'll do it again tonight, for a mile and have a swim. I want to lose 20 pounds to start for my goal. I can do it if I keep up my work outs and watch what I'm eating.
Also, there are just a lot of things I want to get worked on. I have the problem of wanting to compare what I do to others who succeed and then I start to ask why I'm not successful and then I doubt myself and then nothing gets done.

I imagine this is a common problem with many people. ;) So I have a lot of company. So, no more worrying if I can do what other people do, succeed like them. I need to worry about just what I can learn and do for myself. I need to learn to take care of my own problems and let others deal with their problems...and if someone needs help, then they can ask instead of me always wondering if they want me to come over and bother then. ;) It's much *easier* to fix someone elses problems, it seems. ;P

So, in August I'm going back to school, this time for web design. I'm a bit excited about that, but I know that I need to take care. I'm very good at thinking about how I will study, but then I'm very, very good, at putting it all off until the last minute. And I want to learn all about web design, there's so much I want to get accomplished. :) So I'll see how that goes.

I want to also write some book reviews, though I admit I'm always worried I will offend someone. But I think there must be a objective way to make a review...or at least a fair review, without being a jerk to the writer. The writer is just a person like us all. ;) so, they write and they have good points and maybe not so good points in their writing. And there's nothing wrong with pointing both out...I think. ;) Well, it would be good practice in any case. I could use a lot of work on my writing after all. If those writers saw what I've made, I think they would have a lot to say ;) and that's ok too. It's about learning too, I think. Who can't improve in some way? I certainly can, and learning more each day...that is a point of life?

Okay, enough rambling and there's my entry for today. :) off to get things done.

A new day...on Wednesday?

2009-08-12T06:25:00.001-07:00

Everyone should have a new day, that day they decide to get it all together and maybe make something of their life. Of course, it's much much easier said than done. :P

So, today is that day for me. I'm tired of playing online games all day. (not that they don't have their place)

And I'm tired of having nothing to show for my follies but more pretent money and/or items. If I put so much effort into real life, I'd have millions by now, I'm sure...and maybe a mansion and a yacht.

So, a new day for me and a new set of things to get me going. Actually, I'm great at making lists of things I need to do, it's the carrying them out that's got me worried. I really like my online games.

But I think this is all due to my internal fears of what if and so and so. I have many things I want to work on, but I get very afraid that it will all come to naught. I get the idea that, "who cares what I have to show?" But that's not true. Everyone has something to show, and everyone has a connection they can make. And if I find others interesting for just being themselves, shouldn't have that right, somewhere inside of me too?

And in any case, I do have a lot of things I want to do and I need to do them.

I'm not sure how I developed such a sense of, "no one loves me, no one cares." Really, I'm not sure. I know I didn't use to have this problem when I was younger. I remember doing things and just getting them done. I remember having a kind of confidence that made me float above small worries. Did it mean I was a great writer? No, I have a lot to work on that way and did then...but you can't get any better if you just don't start.

So, I wonder why I made such a mental turn. Maybe it was the mistakes I made with marriage. Hmm, Maybe it was the friends I lost by beeing too needy and then mean. I don't know but I have to also learn to let it go. If you can't change something, you have to let it go.

I do want to write in my journal every day. Sometimes I think it best to keep it for myself and other times, maybe someone might feel the same but really, that's not the point of me getting it out. I need to find myself and move on. ;P I feel too floaty much of the time, too far away from my true selt, the confident, exploring person I used to be.

Maybe this will help. Maybe this will bring me to my new day. And maybe my new day can start now.

Stuff and More Stuff..

2008-09-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

I've updated Castle Art web page. It's coming together a little tiny bit at a time. Go see.

And see Neil Gaiman's journal (ok, I have no idea if that apostrophe is in the right place of if I even spelled apostrophe correctly :P) and see how he's helping others in need. :)

and on the bottom of the list, I've gone to the hobby store and spent more than I should as usual.

They had frames on sale for half off so I bought several to show of prints for selling. I have seen somewhere that staging is very important. Not being lazy like I often am, is also right up there with the good. So, I came up and put some prints into the 2.5 x 3.5, the 5x7 and the 8 x 10. I haven't put anything in the 11 x 14 but I will. They are all here, one painting by someone I found on Deviant art actually, all making me very happy :)*smootches over pictures in their pretty frames*

which reminds me, I need to go to bed. I work in the morning. Fun, more serving food to the masses. Well, they have to eat too ;) ok, my bad joke for the night. or whatever that was supposed to be.

Night. :)

Still here...

2008-09-04T22:13:00.000-07:00

I've started my printing making class and I have a new baby blanket I'm working on. I should post as I go but I've been distracted. I am hoping to finish it by Sat at the latest. :)

and I'll have some prints of my work which I'll post to my web page this weekend too. That's the plan :) I must be good. I must be good :)

Just got up..

2008-08-20T05:06:00.000-07:00

I took my shower and the kitties are playing on the floor. Now I'll see what I can get finished today.

I'll see about posting what I get done ;) and try to get a good worker for once. I am not good at getting things done on time that is for sure. ;P

***

Later...I managed to glue on covers to my mini books...about 15 of them. Besides that I mainly cleaned. ;)

Sold!!

2008-08-11T18:19:00.000-07:00

I sold my baby blanket that I made on Etsy. I'm sending it out in the morning. I've giving them the little butterfly book as a little extra.

Yay!

Tomorrow I'm going to start on my writing contest which is to write 30 pages in a week. ;) I'll see how that goes and if I can get up in the morning and actually start it. In the mean time...

Yay! for selling my baby blanket. :)

Some pretty Journal I made.

2008-08-09T13:36:00.001-07:00

For more...http://www.flickr.com/photos/26315223@N03/sets/72157606632594418/

update.

2008-08-07T18:11:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow I have to work. I've been cutting paper for books today and I'm getting the technique down a little more each time. The video I saw on you tube for perfect binding, didn't really mention the parts about glue sticking her or there or however so much.

And I was watching an episode of bones. The first season has a Neil Gaiman reference which I for some reason never noticed before. ;) Some person said something like, he liked some other character so much that he even gave her his Neil Gaiman collection. ;) I thought it was...interesting. Well, kind of fun too. ;p

And I wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow. I need a job that doesn't include asking if someone wants fries with their meal.

I asked some guy the other day if he wanted some jelly for his toast and he acted like I asked him to name all the craters on the moon. He mumbled, I asked again. He mumbled, I asked again but in a more direct manner. He said, after I'd asked, "Do you want Jelly for your toast?"

"Coffee"

I'm trying to figure how he got "Coffee," as in answer about Jelly. No clue at all.

Just a little something. Hat hopefully to follow soon.

2008-08-05T04:16:00.000-07:00

Lots of work

2008-07-27T14:11:00.001-07:00

I'm making a lot of books and more cleaning in my room. ;) I'm hoping to get myself more consitant in posting as well :)

booklet project..

2008-07-23T20:42:00.000-07:00

Here is my little book project

To See More...

http://castleart.livejournal.com/4298.html#cutid1

Blanket fun.

2008-07-09T17:38:00.000-07:00

To see more... :)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/26315223@N03/sets/72157604904287288/

A little deversion for me.

2008-07-09T11:57:00.000-07:00

To see more,

Go see here...http://castleart.livejournal.com/2393.html#cutid1

Baby Yarn.

2008-07-08T10:00:00.001-07:00

I have bought some new yarn for making blankets. I'll see how that goes. OOh, pretty and baby soft.

By the way I got it on clearance too. ;) I went back and the color I needed was almost all gone. Wah. Sheesh.

Painting time...

2008-05-16T04:20:00.000-07:00

I finished three atc's last night. I'm on a mission to make up 10 at least today. it's 6:20 now so I'm up and listening to my last FM.

I used to have it set to a certain writers station but...now I just listen to things...like someone. ;P Good enough

Back to painting.

Fun. So much to do, so little time.

Busy week...

2008-05-14T13:55:00.000-07:00

So much to do but I'm getting it done. I'm getting more of my web page too though geocities won't let me see the page right now. If I can figure out this blogger thing a little better I'll be in good shape.. :)