A new day...on Wednesday?

Everyone should have a new day, that day they decide to get it all together and maybe make something of their life. Of course, it's much much easier said than done. :P So, today is that day for me. I'm tired of playing online games all day. (not that they don't have their place) And I'm tired of having nothing to show for my follies but more pretent money and/or items. If I put so much effort into real life, I'd have millions by now, I'm sure...and maybe a mansion and a yacht. So, a new day for me and a new set of things to get me going. Actually, I'm great at making lists of things I need to do, it's the carrying them out that's got me worried. I really like my online games. But I think this is all due to my internal fears of what if and so and so. I have many things I want to work on, but I get very afraid that it will all come to naught. I get the idea that, "who cares what I have to show?" But that's not true. Everyone has something to show, and everyone has a connection they can make. And if I find others interesting for just being themselves, shouldn't have that right, somewhere inside of me too? And in any case, I do have a lot of things I want to do and I need to do them. I'm not sure how I developed such a sense of, "no one loves me, no one cares." Really, I'm not sure. I know I didn't use to have this problem when I was younger. I remember doing things and just getting them done. I remember having a kind of confidence that made me float above small worries. Did it mean I was a great writer? No, I have a lot to work on that way and did then...but you can't get any better if you just don't start. So, I wonder why I made such a mental turn. Maybe it was the mistakes I made with marriage. Hmm, Maybe it was the friends I lost by beeing too needy and then mean. I don't know but I have to also learn to let it go. If you can't change something, you have to let it go. I do want to write in my journal every day. Sometimes I think it best to keep it for myself and other times, maybe someone might feel the same but really, that's not the point of me getting it out. I need to find myself and move on. ;P I feel too floaty much of the time, too far away from my true selt, the confident, exploring person I used to be. Maybe this will help. Maybe this will bring me to my new day. And maybe my new day can start now.

Stuff and More Stuff..

I've updated Castle Art web page. It's coming together a little tiny bit at a time. Go see.

And see Neil Gaiman's journal (ok, I have no idea if that apostrophe is in the right place of if I even spelled apostrophe correctly :P) and see how he's helping others in need. :)

and on the bottom of the list, I've gone to the hobby store and spent more than I should as usual.

They had frames on sale for half off so I bought several to show of prints for selling. I have seen somewhere that staging is very important. Not being lazy like I often am, is also right up there with the good. So, I came up and put some prints into the 2.5 x 3.5, the 5x7 and the 8 x 10. I haven't put anything in the 11 x 14 but I will. They are all here, one painting by someone I found on Deviant art actually, all making me very happy :)*smootches over pictures in their pretty frames*

which reminds me, I need to go to bed. I work in the morning. Fun, more serving food to the masses. Well, they have to eat too ;) ok, my bad joke for the night. or whatever that was supposed to be.

Night. :)

Still here...

I've started my printing making class and I have a new baby blanket I'm working on. I should post as I go but I've been distracted. I am hoping to finish it by Sat at the latest. :)

and I'll have some prints of my work which I'll post to my web page this weekend too. That's the plan :) I must be good. I must be good :)

Just got up..

I took my shower and the kitties are playing on the floor. Now I'll see what I can get finished today.

I'll see about posting what I get done ;) and try to get a good worker for once. I am not good at getting things done on time that is for sure. ;P

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Later...I managed to glue on covers to my mini books...about 15 of them. Besides that I mainly cleaned. ;)

Sold!!

I sold my baby blanket that I made on Etsy. I'm sending it out in the morning. I've giving them the little butterfly book as a little extra.

Yay!

Tomorrow I'm going to start on my writing contest which is to write 30 pages in a week. ;) I'll see how that goes and if I can get up in the morning and actually start it. In the mean time...

Yay! for selling my baby blanket. :)

Some pretty Journal I made.

For more...http://www.flickr.com/photos/26315223@N03/sets/72157606632594418/

update.

Tomorrow I have to work. I've been cutting paper for books today and I'm getting the technique down a little more each time. The video I saw on you tube for perfect binding, didn't really mention the parts about glue sticking her or there or however so much.

And I was watching an episode of bones. The first season has a Neil Gaiman reference which I for some reason never noticed before. ;) Some person said something like, he liked some other character so much that he even gave her his Neil Gaiman collection. ;) I thought it was...interesting. Well, kind of fun too. ;p

And I wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow. I need a job that doesn't include asking if someone wants fries with their meal.

I asked some guy the other day if he wanted some jelly for his toast and he acted like I asked him to name all the craters on the moon. He mumbled, I asked again. He mumbled, I asked again but in a more direct manner. He said, after I'd asked, "Do you want Jelly for your toast?"

"Coffee"

I'm trying to figure how he got "Coffee," as in answer about Jelly. No clue at all.